Placement #2

So I have a new little guy who lives with us now. I haven't figured out his computer name (leaning towards Cookie Monster), but he's almost 3 and I'm happy to be a safe space for him. No matter how long he's here, I want him to feel loved and safe. I want him to know that I care for him, no matter how long or short he's in my care. I want him to feel free to be himself so he can grow and learn!

How did it happen?

I received the first call inquiring about this placement at 6:31 p.m. Right after I ranted on Instagram about how buys life was feeling (haha). God clearly had a different plan in store. He was dropped off at my house at 8:09 p.m.

Obviously, I can't share much, but it's true when you read about how some kids come with very little. Our priority at the moment is making it through the night, hopefully getting some sleep, and then making our lists in the morning.

Was it the same as with Mister Man?

These two experiences felt completely different. I don't know if it was the specifics of the case, where the kids were coming from, the workers I communicated with, the timeline or all of it combined. I can truly say that the rush and mix of emotions was the same though, just happened a lot quicker this time.

In this situation, it sunk it a little more how truly awful this day is for these kids. I know I talk about it, but today I felt it in my own way and I can't even being to pretend to know the feelings and emotions of these kids.

First Night

Cookie Monster is asleep, I'm hoping he's able to sleep through the night. I know I need to get to bed and try to get as much sleep as I can. Mister Man woke up a few times as I was making sure the room was ready, and fixing a few things here and there but then fell into his typical deep sleep and slept through the safety check, and Cookie Monster going to sleep (which took a little while and some loud tears).

I'm looking forward to everyone meeting each other in the morning. I don't expect it to be calm so I plan to get up at my typical time and try to keep some type of morning structure for myself. Tomorrow will be a challenging day, no matter what happens. There's a newness to our home and that doesn't take place without sadness. Both of my boys live with me and it's not a blessing. It's not what any kid wants, and not what their parents want either. It's a tough situation, but for now, I get to be a mother figure/role in their life and I will do it to the best of my ability!

Anyways, for now, please pray for us! It's a busy week and we want to make it as comfortable and welcoming as our newest addition....also anyone want to come finish my grad school project (haha)!?!?